I have never been one for “New Year Resolutions”, but this year I am feeling a litttle different about it.
2019 was a tricky one for me and photography. I only left the house with a camera a couple of times in the whole year and I find myself very disappointed with that. The good news is that when I did click the shutter I am generally pretty happy with the outcome, so whilst 2 rolls of 120 and 2 cans of 35mm isn’t the haul I want at the end of 2020, at least 50% of the total were keepers. Both occasions were also fantastic days out with some of my favourite people, so there is also that.
I wrote very little, only what you have seen in the posts here so far plus the articles I have written on emulsive.org. This too is something that I really want to change in 2020. I used to write a lot, mainly poetry but also longer prose pieces. I was emailing a fellow photographer explaining how I love cross pollenation between artistic mediums when I realised that I hadn’t written creatively for ages, and that one of my photographic aims has always been to produce a book of photography with appropriate poetry or prose included.
I am also tinkering with the idea of a year long project of just using one camera, and for it not to be my RB67! I am seriously considering having a 35mm year. I have a little stock of film, thanks in no small part to my Emulsive Secret Santa this year who was awesome. The camera will be my Canon Ftb QL and (initially at least) the 50mm which is the only lens I have for it right now.
Here are some of the 35mm shots from the trip to the coast in October just after our wedding. It was this trip that reminded me that 35mm is just as valid for the type of photography I like to engage in.
Finally, I have been thinking seriously about starting a podcast. Yes there are loads of film photography podcasts out there at the moment, but I don’t think I have seen one with my slant on it, which is a mental health view based on my own experiences and what that may help others with their own thoughts. It’s still very much in the planning stage, but I have a name, and an Anchor account created, and have run some test recordings, so it’s plodding along.
Really, honestly finally, I will publish something this year! Something physical, a zine or a book of my photography. 2019 was the year of talking about it, 2020 will be the year of doing it!
So to actually address the title of this post, the new year means a little more than it has in the past for me. It means thinking more about what makes me happy but also being a bit more brave and doing things that I know make me happy when I fear that they wont; photography falls into this camp. The primary reason for not shooting is that I am afraid, and 2020 will be a year of not letting that stop me.